DAD WHY NOW
Hon Hadji Mustaphar
?TRIBUTE TO YOU?
( Mr Mensah Gadzi)
I called you dady because you were part of those who shaped me, you made me the man I am today, you told me not to give up, you took me in as a son and I accept you as a father.
About a month ago you keep visiting me in my dreams and I was also asking and searching for you only to locate the family without you.
Papa why ??
I learnt you passed away about a month ago.
Even though I knew it was looming, I didn’t know it would come so soon. I was hoping I’d have more time to get acquainted with the idea of death and what it means for those of us left behind.
Now I am beginning to realise just how naive my understanding of grieve was before I was forced to confront death’s discourteous blow.
While I hope you never have to embark on this transition, the truth is, we all will. Death is part of life and my existence will never be the same as I have lost someone I so dearly love.
I know the pain of losing my Dad will perhaps never leave me. I imagine it will ease with time as I process and get through it, but I don’t suspect I will get over it. How can I? How can you get over a person who has been there since before you were even aware of yourself?
His life, his influence, his energy is inextricably linked to mine and I now take comfort in that.
I take comfort in knowing that my Dad is no longer in pain. That suffering is no longer something he has to endure. Dad!! Mensah Gadzeti, you will forever be in my heart until the day it stops beating.
And I am grateful that I am becoming a more fully realized human being, a more caring, compassionate, and empathetic person because of you Dad. Still, I would forfeit any wisdom for the sake of having you back.
You will forever remain in my heart
Rest well papa ??